Transformation – Pharm_artist

Why Did you pick this picture?

I chose this picture because the emotion that went into creating this drawing was greater than all my other works. It might be the best piece, but I’m not good at judging the quality of my own work.

Where Did you get the idea from?

At first it started off as a simple observational drawing using a reference. However as I continued I could feel a sense of despair and struggle from the image I was creating. I then applied that to something which everyone must go through, change. The best way of conveying that message was to use a butterfly.

What does this mean to you?

When I look at this it makes me think of all the trials and tribulations that I have been through and how they have helped shape me to become who I am. It’s great because everyone can relate, we all go through things both good and bad but in the end it makes us who we are; who we were always meant to be – just like the butterfly. The woman has no colour to illustrate a sense of disconnect from the surrounding world. The black fragments represent the darkness and the wings are the only hope of breaking free.

What can you tell us about yourself?

I’m 23 years old and a newly qualified pharmacist. Drawing has been a passion of mine since I was a child. I have no formal education in art, everything I do is a result of continued practice. You could say making a mistake was my only teacher. I still remember the days I used to watch cartoons and recreated what I saw as it brought me joy.

In school I would doodle in my exercise books after completing the work, I thought this was acceptable boy was I wrong. Near the end of primary school during the SATs my obsessive doodling had got me into trouble. During a parent-teacher meeting my doodles were brought to the attention of my parents. My grades were never an issue but the message was clear: school was no place for doodling. Later that day when I went home my father felt the need to reiterate this message, having me round up all my drawings at home and asking how much time I had spent creating them. He concluded the conversation by letting me know how my time would be better spent elsewhere.

Now as a 10 year old child I was puzzled, I’d never been in trouble for anything but the one thing I loved doing was seen as ‘wrong’, this completely destroyed me. I gathered every sketch and doodle and ripped them to shreds. My mother was always supportive of my art she told me never to give up and let the talent go to waste.

Years had passed since I last picked up the pencil, I was in secondary school about to start my A levels. My career path of Pharmacy was chosen and I was on track. The science lessons tended to get dull and my mind wandered, so I started doodling again. I carried on drawing all the way through 5 years of university and my skills had developed considerably. I wasn’t just doodling I was attempting portraits and abstract art.

Now I just keep drawing with the aim of improving. Art is the best form of escapism and it is truly incredible how such negative emotions can yield such beautiful results. When I pick the pencil up and put the headphones on it’s like I’m not here, my mind is at peace.

What more can you tell us about your art?

I enjoy using charcoal, graphite and coloured pencils. I just love shading and adding little details to drawings. Portraits are my favourite choice of drawing because they are both challenging and fun to complete. I recently put prints of my artwork up for sale because why not. One thing is for sure, I will never stop again.

To see more of Pharm_artist’s work please follow the link below to see their instgram page 

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